All good things must come to an end.

The only thing I have learned from my ivy league experience is how many things are more important. I can't believe it is all over. Just in one simple conversation. Things can't be more involved than they are. I am getting to attached. I am leaving in two weeks. I can't be any more attached than I already am. I don't mean to cry. I don't mean or want to be so upset. This is just how it is going to be. I don't want to leave you. How am I supposed to be sure that I am going to find some one better or even as good as you. I was so happy. I have never felt like that before. I have never been so sure of someone and the way they felt about me. I know that summer flings are meant to come and go, but I still do not want it to go. I don't want it to be over. I want this summer to last forever. I have been so comfortable with my self and the way I act. I have been accepted for just being me. I knew that I shouldn't just fall, fall so hard for someone so fast. It was just so great I didn't even mean it. I have never had a guy hold me and cry. Cry just as hard as I was crying. I have never felt like that before. I have been crying over meaningless guys since I was in sixth grade. Now I know how dumb and stupid I was. Now I don't know even how to express the feelings that I have except for the same way I have been expressing them all along, and now they don't mean what I want them to mean. I have so may things that I want to say to him, so much to make heard. These things will never be said. No one will ever get to meet him or know the way I felt or what we did.

He wouldn't kiss me. It is better for him to just end it all and completely cut off all contact. Turn your head as if I don't even matter Hug me and tell me it will be ok, but then completely change the way things used to be. I guess that is for the best though. It must take a real man to be able to not give in to the temptation of a female laying right next to him. To not even kiss her, when you know how much he loves her.